Henry Miller Reacts

We eat our fried dough
sugar caking on wooden table tops
she has a coffee
I take a decaf tea
herbal
honey
her fingers moving rings
nervous ticks
did you see this movie - what did you think?
avoiding the conversation
about the time she tried to commit suicide
and told them all from a napkin
at the White Horse bar
in NYC
while her lover got drunk with a stranger in a hotel in the heart of queens
her mascara runs in awkward black rivers over bright red cheeks
and she apologizes as though i asked for it
repeatedly
tells me she's trying
tells me she hasn't felt right in thirteen years
shows me a scar on her hand from a dog bite
distracts me from asking any more questions with her mouth on a spoon